Having another interesting week. Still having insomnia; I bought some ‘Rescue Remedy Sledge Hammer Knock You Out Herbal Petals’ in my desperation. It advised 4 drops on the tongue before sleep – I was practically swigging the stuff at 4.30am. I feel I really am past petals, lavender oil and scented candles. I partly blame my consultant who had told me that he’s positive it’s not a case of IF I get better but WHEN I get better so I stupidly got over excited about all the things I’ll be able to do when I’m well again – it certainly didn’t aid sleep!

Other than that I’ve felt quite sick and headachy on the new tablets but I hoping that will wear off in the next few days. The vertigo has been a bit crappy but I put that down to the tiredness and I’m hoping it will settle when everything else does.

On the positive I’ve a friends wedding to look forward too. I just have to hope that I can fit into the old faithful blue dress ok. I’ve lost a bit of weight, I don’t know about some chicken fillets helping me out I think I’ll need two steroid pumped up turkeys to do the job! But it’s been a great excuse to scoff my face whenever I want (hmmm maybe that’s why I feel sick?). I’ve even been having a pint of Guinness at night to build me up, in a wine glass so it’s still ladylike 😉

I went out to lunch with my mum to an outside cafe in the woods that’s local to me. My mum is really lovely and chats to anyone and I mean anyone, in fact they’re lucky if they can get a word in let alone get away! There was a man on the table next to us (singing) who you could just tell wanted a chat with anyone. He hit the jackpot with my mum! They had a good natter and then mum had to leave to answer a phone call. She retuned to find the man with his Bible out asking if he could put his hand on my head and pray for me saying that he could heal me. Awkward! Lovely guy but that’s not really up my street, we left him there humming away quite happily.

I went to the gym with my aunt and went to a Pilates session (essentially lying down in a different place, it’s great for me) whilst she worked out. I went to meet her and on seeing me she then shouted to the entire gym that she hadn’t been there for so long her progress card had been archived. I then pointed out she still had her iPod on. At least every member at the gym is now aware of her progress!

I’m a bit disappointed as I can’t make the yoga reunion. Last year I went on the most amazing yoga retreat in Sardinia where I think my stomach got the best workout you can get just from all the laughing. In one restaurant we laughed so hard we got asked to keep it down (which made us laugh more) and this was in an Italian restaurant! I made some amazing friends and my vertigo was the best it has ever been – I can’t wait to go back.

I’m very excited as I’m going to go stay with a mate in Devon for a couple of weeks. It will give my poor mother a good break and it will give me a change of scene. I’m staying with a very good friend (and her rabbit) who is much more quirky than me so I’m sure we will have some great stories to add next week. I’m so excited I’ve started packing a week early (yes I’ve packed the polka dot bikini – you never know!), I feel like I’m going on holiday.

So I just have to hope that things will settle down and that the journey won’t make me too ill. I’m staying positive from my boost of positivity prescribed by my consultant last week so I think it will be great. Just think of all those cream teas and ciders I can consume to fit into my blue dress. Hmmmm may pack the baggy tracky bottoms!